Please be good

So, there is 'something' (someone) who you really trust and respect. You look up to 'it', very highly.

And then suddenly, 'it' betrayed you. 'It' used you. And hurt you. Kicked you down.

How devastating that would be like.

I know now, what it's like. I'm disappointed. Very disappointed. But even after all these, I found that I still love 'it'. Absentmindedly, I showed that I still love 'it', which surprised one part of me, but not another.

What does this mean?

I'm weak? Gullible? Too naive and trusting? Isn't that bad? I'm susceptible to lies and deceits.

But no, most of the time, I'm able to detect those. I know when I am being lied to, or used. But sometimes, I just let it happen to me. Why, I don't know. Maybe to show the deceiver that I still trust 'it', hoping that someday, somehow, 'it' would see my love, honesty and loyalty. And when that happens, 'it' would start to regret what 'it' has done to me and return to face me as a better individual.

No more lies. No more deceits.

How good would that be... I wish it would happen the way I see it.