College Life - Day 1

Hmm, first of all, I haven't written here in a while, have I?

Ah, well. Here I am now, writing about my first day of college days.

I just moved in to my new condominium. My parents, siblings and cousins came along to see me off. Today started off pretty badly. Everyone was somehow easily annoyed and kept snapping at everyone else. But that passed by eventually.

While we were in Ampang, where we picked up both Ayin and Jeeha, I was visited by moments of reminiscence. I was remembering how I only used to attend kindergarten in Bukit Indah, and now I'm already attending college... Touching moment, much.

I am now currently in my room. My room mate, Elli is out somewhere, probably with her friends. I'm quite alright with it, since I do prefer times of solitude, too.

I noticed how the fan creaked as it spun slowly, and the steady rhythm of thudding noises, caused by some construction work going on outside the condominium's compound.

It reminded me that time is moving. It may seem to move slowly, but it was definitely advancing forwards.

Tomorrow is coming.

His cowardly side

I want a purpose in life. Something to strive for, or to look forward to. To me, that kind of life is most pleasing. To have a reason. To want something.

I do want something. I do have a dream. And I aimed for it.

But he keeps dampening my spirits lately, threatening to dispose of my chance of reaching my dreams. I have never seen him put up this stupid act this long before. I used to respect him.

Now he keeps getting stress from work and lets it loose at home. With us, as the victims. He became extremely annoying and more easily pissed off.

I don't understand why he didn't understand his own situation.

How could he ever say that stress from work never affects home? It did, it does. Everyone can see that. And he's ignoring it.

Turns out he has a cowardly side too...

I hate school

I can't believe it. I never expected it. Didn't even see it coming.

In a few days, I'll be retrieving my exam results at... ugh, school. Just thinking about going back there again disgusts me.

And as if stepping into the school's compound and facing all my old teachers again aren't bad enough, they just had to make us wear our old school uniforms again.

The cursed teachers said that if we don't appear to them in full school uniforms, they won't give us our result slips.

Not only that, those who had their hair stylised and dyed have to cut and re-dye their hair back to how it was when they were in school.

This is so not fair. How could they do this to us? It's like they want to torture us for the very last time before completely letting us go to the outside world.

They hate us. They hate us so much.

And I hate them back.

Sister-brother

My brother and I went out to the back of house tonight. We worked our way in the darkness and climbed up the unfinished steps that led to the rooftop balcony above. From there, we climbed a bit further and sat exactly on the roof.

He lied down on his back, while I sat with my knees to my chest. We both looked up to the night sky. There were a few visible stars, the rest hidden behind the looming clouds. My brother noticed one twinkling star and stated that it was in a dying state; exploding into little pieces.

I remembered finding out about that fact when I was twelve. I learned about it during one night class at school and when I got home, told him about it. We were so fascinated by the fact and went over it a few times. We even went outside the house and searched for twinkling stars.

We listened to the music playing from his cellphone. It was Human by The Killers. I guess I subconciously sang along to the song.

My brother had one hand behind his head and the other held out in front of him, facing the sky. He said, "It's sort of unbelievable to think that the world is actually moving right now."

I might have smiled slightly at that, and nodded my head.

We continued to sit up there on the roof, talking about some other things.

I thought, "We're being very friendly to each other today. It's another sister-brother moment today."

Tonight...

Tonight... Tears unexpectedly streamed out of my eyes. My heart thumped wildly against my ribcage. I gasped for breath, and panted.

Why?

Keeennziii~!!

She turned on the video camera, and switched off the bathroom lights. Quickly, she got into position, making sure the camera faced the currently closed door.

A second later, the door opened, and a hand was seen reaching out for the
lights switch. She could not help but giggle and cry out, "Yay~!"

He realized what was going on, and cursed, "Bull-!"

Frantically, he tried to switch on the lights again, whimpering, and trying to cover his private parts at the same time. When he finally managed to switch it on, everyone could see part of his naked body, from the side. Embarrassed, he retreated back inside the bathroom and shut the door.

She was still bursting into laughter outside, proud that she got everything on tape. A wail was heard from inside the bathroom.

"Keeennziii~!!"

Don't rush me.

I admit; I like to rush, and quickly get over things.

But I hate it when I'm being rushed.

Will you please just let me rush at my own pace?

I will push you down and speak rudely to you if I want to.

So, go away.

Flirting, infatuation and falling in love is not for me right now.

Go away.