Wishlist

There's this thing going around in DA, and I think it's very sweet and lovely.

You'd have to create a wishlist of things that you want, whether they are petty and seem silly, or big and important for the sake of everyone. It only has to be pure and honest; you really, really want it.

Everyone else can see your list, and who knows? Maybe he or she has the ability to make your wish happen.

It can be so magical! <3

Here is the list of everyone else's wishes: http://nayruasukei.deviantart.com/journal/forum/1384491

And here's mine:

1) To get accepted into Limkokwing University of Creative technology by 2010. Oh please, oh please.
2) To find someone whom I love and loves me back, enough for a stable relationship.
3) To have pets such as a cat, iguana and a hedgehog. :3
4) For all the ignorant people to stop killing animals in the wild for no apparent good reason.
5) For my family to get on good terms with each other.
6) A Nintendo DSi. But a Nintendo DS Lite works too.
7) A new VAIO laptop of my very own.
8) An iPhone. Or just a new Sony Ericcson cellphone. XP
9) A Canon DSLR camera. OwO
10) To be able to go to New York or Tokyo.

Rootless

I wish I could detect what my problem is.

I'm so unpredictable, even I can't know what I'm about to do!

This sucks.

I was so calm and collected for quite a while, and then I would suddenly plummet down into an abyss of confusion and lost feeling.

And to top it off, it happens right when I'm halfway through my Malaysian Ceritificate of Education examinations.

I thought I could pierce through the exams like cutting through air with a knife, but why, oh why, didn't I see this coming?

I should have known this would happen, in one way or another.

Maybe there is no core of the problem. Maybe the problem doesn't have any roots.

Maybe I would never be able to stop this unpredictability...

It keeps coming and coming...

Silent treatment

Ever since the last few days, I must say, I have been doing a good job avoiding him.

I'm giving him the silent treatment.

I know my indifferent and ignorant attitude towards him confused him. Every time I was close by him, I could sense that he was waiting, and waiting, for me to make the first move to talk to him. Usually, I would be the one to try to strike up a conversation between us, in an obvious excited manner.

But I didn't.

I made it look obvious that I was avoiding him. He was baffled.

He stayed put and still waited for the first few days. But today, he decided to make sure I see him. He walked in front of me and said a small "Hey." I simply looked up and smiled as minimum as possible, and turned back to Ashraf.

Take that, you double-faced airhead.

Backstabber

You backstabbing idiot! You're a low-life! How can you live with such evil in you?

I've always wanted to say this to you...

Thank you.

You have finally stabbed into my back deep enough with your sharp dagger. Deep enough for me to feel the pain. Finally.

And now that I know I've been wounded from the back, I'll twist and wrench that dagger away from me.

I'll kill you myself.

One life down.

Recognition

I tried so hard... to get recognition.

Why is it so hard for me to stand out, despite my efforts? Alas, they were futile, I realise. I know I have tried. Yet, no one still cared.

I shed tears, and no one seemed to notice.

Or they simply left me alone to drown in my own anxiety because I implied that I wanted to be left alone with my problems.

I still crave for attention, damn it. I have talents, and special abilities. I want the people to know about them, so that they could appreciate me.

No one ever did.

...Not those in majority, anyway.