Faizal Tahir - Bencinta

Benarkan ku untuk berbicara,
Bicara terus ke hati mu, hati mu...
Hati yang penuh rasa ragu,
Jangan terus pergi,
Tanpa mendengar ku,
Mungkin mudah,
Untuk kau terus berlalu,
Nanti dulu,
Berikanlah waktu,
Untuk aku; untuk kamu.

[Chorus 1]
Ingatkah lagi waktu kau bersama ku?
Kaku aku melihat mu,
Lidah kelu sedangkan aku,
Mahu kau tahu,
Aku cinta pada mu,
Benci pada mu,
Cinta pada mu.

Ke tepi lihat ku berlalu,
Pasti itu yang terbaik untuk ku,
Tiada lagi mahu ku tahu,
Tentang hidup kamu,
Tentang mati kamu,
Aku tahu,
Engkau tahu apa yang mata ku tahu,
Apa yang kau tunggu?
Mahu aku buka pintu?

[Chorus 2]
Ingatkah lagi waktu kau bersama ku?
Kaku aku melihat mu,
Sedang aku mahu kau tahu,
Dengar kata ku,
Aku cinta padamu,
Benci pada mu,
Cinta pada mu.

Sakitnya aku,
Membenci kamu,
Sakit lagi mencintai mu,
Dan aku pergi,
Tapi kembali,
Benci aku mencintai diri mu,

Ku benci kamu...
Ku cinta kamu...

[Chorus 2]
[Chorus 1]

Ingatkah lagi waktu kau bersama ku?
Dengar kata ku,
Aku cinta pada mu,
Aku benci pada mu,
Aku cinta! Aku benci!

Time Off

So I arrived at my cousin's place today, sometime around lunch. I must admit, I was a little worried I'd have forgotten the way to his place, but as I navigated smoothly without problems, I scoffed at myself and said I'd never get lost going there. I've been frequenting that house for as long as I can remember. Since birth, in fact. I remember the views and scenes I keep seeing out the window from when I was small, and that really helped.

When I got there, my cousins were either still asleep or just waking up. Boy, it sure was a sight to see Zeera, my little cousin, all sprawled out on her parents' bed in an undignified way, lol. I woke her up by purposely speaking, as to let her hear my voice and know that I've arrived. We sat down in the living room with my aunt, Moksu Shidah, who told us that she fell down the stairs that morning. I said, "And you just decided to tell us now?" She replied, "Wellll, the kids were all still sleeping and Uncle Nashar's at work!" Luckily she didn't hit her head or something, though she did get all these red marks on her legs, and I think one is a bit swollen. It was cute how she called her husband that morning though, and was all like, sobbing and, "Honey, are you busy? Did you know I fell down the stairs? TwT"

Ayin finally woke up when I was just showing Zeera and Jeeha some cat videos, short films, and my Pocket-Hearts character, Calenthe. Haha, I complained to them how my sister said she was ugly simply because she has short hair. They called her 'hairist' like you'd call someone a racist. And omigosh, we started talking about how my sister's such a drama queen! I'm surprised she posted a picture of herself (that she also took herself) crying on Facebook, but then again, that's just like her. That's one of the reasons why I escaped to my cousin's house anyway. I don't like being at home, sometimes. We're all too different, and we don't really... click. But here... everyone thinks like me, and we have the same taste and everything. Plus, I can be all cheerful and snuggly with all of them, unlike with my own immediate family. I really like hugs, no matter how awkward I may be at it. |'D

We had croquettes for lunch, and my cousins and Moksu Shidah were discussing about the texture and taste of the croquettes. I observed intently because this family really loves food and cooking. I hope they'd rub off on me so I could be on par with my chef boyfriend, heh. We baked a butter cake and made some pudding/custard. My aunt and I had a debate about what it was, lol. I called it pudding, but she was adamant it was custard. I'm pretty sure I know custard was something else because I've made them before (and won a cooking contest, yeah). =w=

During dessert, Zeera kept making us laugh by choking on her own spit and then spilling her dessert by accident (she claimed her sister pushed her hard, but I doubt it, lol). Then she ran out of milk and went to kitchen to get some more, but passed by the jug and said that she couldn't find it. Moksu Shidah winked at me and said that it was all out. I caught on and played along, as did everyone else. She got so disappointed, and then mad at Jeeha because she said she was the one who finished them all. The chubby little 10-year-old had her 17-year-old sister pinned to the floor, gosh. XD I finally had to intervene and dragged Zeera to the kitchen to show her where the damn jug was, geez (but not before trolling her several times, of course, heheh).

Ayin was always on his PSP, playing Monster Hunter, so he's mostly to himself, and Uncle Nashar was having a fever, so he turned in early. Us, the ladies watched a movie to wait 'til midnight for the coming of a New Year. But when the time came, all we heard were fireworks and we stayed inside. We'd usually be outside, playing with some fireworks, or at least watching others'. It was just another day to us, now. Zeera, however, being the cute little kid that she is, went upstairs to wish her parents a Happy New Year, and then asked me if I needed to call my family to wish them too. I was just like, "Nahhh, pssh-" though I appreciated her sentiment. Gosh, I love this kid. I wish she was my sister. I was hugging her during the movie and she said, "Um, why are you hugging me?" in just the cutest fucking voice, and I said, "Because I love you. I wish my daughter would be as cool as you." :3

Oh yeah, I also let her play with my Bamboo Dock apps when she (cutely) asked. It was amusing, seeing her play this doctor game, which she describes as 'scary', because she keeps ending up killing her patients. She played other games too, and when she keeps screwing up, I only gently told her it was okay, but Ayin said, "Don't encourage her..." since that's his way of 'training' her. (He does this when she plays other games too, like Persona, Kingdom Hearts, Monster Hunter, etc... yeah, she and her siblings are that cool. B'D) So I changed course and said bluntly, "...Okay. Zeera, you suck." And then she replied with a dejected, sighing voice, "I know..." We lol-ed. XD