Gramedia

Yesterday I went to The Mines with Lim. He wanted to get a new cage for his hamsters at the Pet Lovers' Center while I wanted to get a book I've been aiming at Gramedia Bookstore. The last time I went there was with Bond, Mega and Tari.

I had suffered the strongest of the pain I felt in my side. It never had come to that level of pain before. I wondered why.

And yesterday, after I had retrieved my book, I went to meet up with Lim when the pain in my right side happened again, albeit with less force. Not only that, as we both exited Gramedia, we simultaneously felt sudden headaches. Odd, indeed.

I went there again, today, alone. But to my dismay, nothing in particular happened.

Perhaps it only works when I have company? I shall try again next week, with Tari.

The Big Five-O

So we held a birthday party for Ayah today, since he's turning 50 years old now. That's half a century, when you think about it.

Moksu Shidah, Mak Tah, Mokde, Aunty Lim, Abang In and Ayah's cousin, Aunty Ani came. And then there were Shahrul's and Adrin's friends too. I wanted to invite Natsuki but she had to paint her house today. Besides, Jeeha was there anyway, so basically I had a friend. Too bad Ayin wasn't here. It's so different without him around. I'm kind of jealous of that... I bet no one would really notice if I was the one absent. It's unfair. I thought I was supposed to be second-in-command, since we are counterparts. Especially after hearing Jeeha telling me about all the old baby pictures she found of us. I... I can't believe there was a picture of us kissing! =/////=

We had some usual family laughs. Our inside jokes and everything. The barbeque was handled by my brother and his friends, and they made quite a ruckus. When it was time for the water balloon fight, I tried to hit my father with it, but it exploded on one of Shahrul's friends instead. Ah, well. At least he didn't try for a revenge on me. When I was asked by Uncle Nashar whether or not I won or lost the water balloon fight, I answered, "Neither". Didn't really get to hit anyone and I was still dry.

Then we brought out the cake, which was very delicious, even for someone who isn't a chocolate addict. While everyone else went to see Ayah open up his presents, my girl cousins and I stayed around the dining table, talking about boyfriends. Abang Hafiz sat with us for a while, silent, and left to follow the aunties. He's definitely weird. Anyway, while we talked, we finished Mak Yam's perfect apple crumble. Oh man, it really was heavenly. I'm definitely going to have it again.

Just as we were having a lot of fun, laughing, suddenly, all the adults were calling out the dreaded call of, "Okay! Let's go home!".

Only Jeeha's family stayed until at least 8pm. And that was thanks to Adrin and Zeera taking a long time in the bathtub. As usual, we tried to prolong their stay by luring them with more chicken. And that meant they had to stay for the chicken to cook. That was an hour long! In the end, we lost, but oh well. It's just different without Ayin, that's most of the part.

Also, I cut my finger.

Ursine pheromones

Ohh.

Seriously, your smell... It is so invigorating!

I love to bury my face in your back, drinking in the strong scent on your shirt and body. Even after you left, I would sniff where you had been, where your scent still lingers.

It is unnaturally addictive to me, I dare say, like a drug. It makes me feel fine and calm, yet I also feel the urge of violence stirring inside me. It makes me go insane! I feel like grabbing hold of you and never let go, just so I could continue to enjoy your redolence.